When I started this blog, my intentions were not to make myself look good. At all. If people think thats what this blog is all about then I will delete it right now. My purpose of this blog was to share my experiences and lessons learned, hoping that maybe they would impact your life. I want to be nothing but honest on this blog. Thats why I am about to share with you about who I am. The real me.
Im not perfect. I never will be. I make mistakes constantly. I sin everyday. I dont always follow the Lord or his will for my life. I am not always the best of a friend, nor the best sister to my siblings. I am not always the best daughter for my parents. Thats me. I get angry, I have a temper, I scream and yell sometimes. I cry. I complain. I argue. Thats me. I gossip. I lie. I cheat. Thats me. I have drank. I have bullied. I have disobyed. Thats me. I am a sinner. I am no different from anyone else.
But, I am forgiven. Forgiven from those mistakes I make daily. I have been saved by grace. I am now a child of Gods. He walks with my daily and helps me through struggles. He helps me make the right decisions.. but sometimes my earthly flesh gets the best of me. All I am wants his will for my life. I love him unconditionally. Thats me. I want to do mission work. I want to feed the hungry and clothe the poor. Thats me. I want to be an example to others. I want others to see him through me and want what I have. I want him to use me. Thats me.
The Lord has made me who I am. I take no credit for it at all. I just want you to know though, and never forget.. I am not perfect. I never will be. I am just Erin. This is the Real Me.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
One day at a time.
Today I was sitting in my room. It was really quiet, only because I was the only one in the house. As I sat there I began really thinking about my future. (I seem to do that a lot lately) Where will I be in 10 years? Will I be married? Will I have a job? My own house? Kids? Along with these questions, come other questions such as.. Will my husband want to have kids too? Will he want to do mission work like me? Will I get a good job somewhere? Oh, and so many more...
Finally after thinking about all this for a while, something hit me. As I was reading through scripture I remembered a passage in Jeremiah.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11
God has a plan for me. Yes, I know that. I have heard that over and over. But, I never ever sat down and actually thought it through. GOD, the mighty ruler and Lord over the whole universe has a special plan for me. For my life. His plan is nothing but of good. All things a part of that plan to give him the glory and honor. I want nothing more than to live my life fully devoted to him. Pleasing and honoring him in everything. Every word from my lips, every move I make, every thought I think, every breath I take. All for the glory of God.
God knows the answers to all those questions I had. They may not be the way I want them, but the way HE wants them answered. If God is truly calling me to missions, than he will send me the right spouse who has a heart for missions too. Maybe he wont send me a spouse at all. Maybe his will for my life is to be single my whole life. Thats just something I will have to accept because He has a purpose for that. Kids, we will see. A job, a house, etc.. He knows.
Now, what do I do until then? I wait. I live life now as full as possible. I want to live his will for my life out everyday. Take life one day at a time. The Lord has a plan and in his time what he wants for me will happen. I can't worry about the future now. I know I serve a loving God and I trust him with my life fully. I am so blessed now with what the Lord has already blessed me with. I can't wait to see what the Lord has planned out for the rest of my time here on this earth. Meanwhile.. I will wait. I will take life One day at a time....
Finally after thinking about all this for a while, something hit me. As I was reading through scripture I remembered a passage in Jeremiah.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11
God has a plan for me. Yes, I know that. I have heard that over and over. But, I never ever sat down and actually thought it through. GOD, the mighty ruler and Lord over the whole universe has a special plan for me. For my life. His plan is nothing but of good. All things a part of that plan to give him the glory and honor. I want nothing more than to live my life fully devoted to him. Pleasing and honoring him in everything. Every word from my lips, every move I make, every thought I think, every breath I take. All for the glory of God.
God knows the answers to all those questions I had. They may not be the way I want them, but the way HE wants them answered. If God is truly calling me to missions, than he will send me the right spouse who has a heart for missions too. Maybe he wont send me a spouse at all. Maybe his will for my life is to be single my whole life. Thats just something I will have to accept because He has a purpose for that. Kids, we will see. A job, a house, etc.. He knows.
Now, what do I do until then? I wait. I live life now as full as possible. I want to live his will for my life out everyday. Take life one day at a time. The Lord has a plan and in his time what he wants for me will happen. I can't worry about the future now. I know I serve a loving God and I trust him with my life fully. I am so blessed now with what the Lord has already blessed me with. I can't wait to see what the Lord has planned out for the rest of my time here on this earth. Meanwhile.. I will wait. I will take life One day at a time....
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